sidewalk advice

why i love autumn

One of the best books you can read during this time of the year is Something Wicked This Way Comes, by Ray Bradbury. Please read, and enjoy.

I watch this whenever I'm contemplating procreation

if you haven't yet

watch Sukiyaki Western: Django

i heart the washington coastline

family vacation turned out to be not so bad after all.

alcoholism

i realized awhile ago that i have a drinking problem. so i'm smack dab in the middle of a drinking hiatus. what bothers me is that i know now i was drinking out of sheer boredom. the state of being drunk made boring people interesting, easier to connect with somehow. inebriation made those awkward parties turn into fun times. all of the people i would normally avoid talking to became close buddies, if not only for the time being. so now here i am, sober as hell on a friday night and i find myself in bed alone after just finishing when harry met sally.

here's my predicament: do i stay home and stay sober, although it's boring as hell, or do i go out and fool my brain into thinking that i'm having a good time? is it my own character flaw that most people are uninteresting enough that i only enjoy being around them when i've had a few drinks?

i do admit, staying away from alcohol these past few weeks has led to feeling great in the morning. i still have money left over to pay my bills and feed myself. i also haven't made a foolish ass of myself recently.

but god damn it! i would really love to drink an entire bottle of red wine.

short layover

time sure flies when you're bored as fuck. traveling makes it way too noticeable how ridiculously ignorant people are, at least in my experience. i wonder if other people think that when they encounter me. maybe it's completely situational. or maybe most people i meet are dumb. hmmm.

mt shasta, ca is a beautiful sight in the summer. normally covered in snow, i caught her scantily clad frame today. that saucy minx.